Empowerment and Connection Through Love
At 26 years old, I found I was lost. I began searching for something in my life to “fill a void,” something I thought was missing. All I knew, at the time, was to look outside myself for the answers, so I looked to other people, religions, places, college degrees, schools of thought. Although some jived with me, not all worked for me. The answers, as I discovered, were in a place where most of us never look… inside. I found that I could believe my intuition and what was right for someone else was not necessarily right for me, but it took me many years to figure that out.
What’s Wrong With Me?
In the process, my life’s situations had a tendency to repeat themselves, in my relationships, in the jobs I held, and I couldn’t seem to figure out why my circumstances kept happening to me over and over again. I had wondered for a long time, “I know there is something wrong but I just don’t know how to fix it.”
But what I discovered over the years was surprising and very deep for me. I was not broken, so how I could I fix myself? What was the answer? I did a lot of what I called “guinea pig” work. I tried all kinds of things on myself before I would talk to anyone else about it in my 5-year massage practice which is what really pushed me forward on my path.
What finally got me to where I needed to be in my life were my Coaches. They pushed me into the place I knew I was ready for, in such a kind and loving way.
My discovery has been realizing that there is nothing wrong with me.
So If I’m Really Not Broken, How Did I “Fix” Myself?
I learned about the connection between the mind, body, spirit, heart and soul during my massage training, but really didn’t get completely involved or understand how it all came together, until much later on. In the process of learning and working my business, I added Reiki and Native American Spirituality and Ceremony to the menu. I also gave basic suggestions on nutrition from the nutrition studies I had done and many years of personal research. I had always had an interest in the mind and loved the study of psychology, so I naturally added those to the process in my massage practice.
I also found that I had difficulties agreeing with the way certain things were being done in psychology/therapy and religion, mostly based on my own experience, but also from talking to others. Once I started researching those, I began to understand more deeply why I felt that way. I would never intend to offend anyone regarding religion, so anything I say here is based on my own experiences, understandings and resulting happiness.
I learned a lot about religion by researching the major religions and gathering information about some of the smaller ones. It always came back to the same thing and that was Love. The underlying meaning was always Love. So why did it hurt so much?
I could never understand if Love was underneath it all, why there was so much pain, suffering, and hatred. I started digging deeper into myself and found that pretty many of us, me included, had been shamed to the point of the complete lack of self-acceptance.
But digging through the layers of sadness, anger, shame and fear took a lot of effort. It’s hard, and it’s necessary to have a support system as you go through it, but it’s possible, no probable, and it is absolutely worth it. It brought me into a whole new place because I began to learn what self-acceptance really is.
It All Began…
All of this began at the age of 25 with a self-help book but did not really start taking off until I was in the process of my first divorce, which occurred about 7 years later. It took losing my children to a thing called Parental Alienation that made me realize I had to work on my life. I looked at all kinds of teachings to help me to get through it such as Eastern Philosophy, to include Yoga, Ayurvedic Medicine, and energy work/Reiki. I studied about nutrition and many other things. Where I landed at the time was with Native American/Indigenous Teachings and that helped me the most to move to where I am today. As I go through my healing, I find that I want to help people see that there are alternatives to pain and suffering.
In July 2014, I took a Personal Development course with my son and my life took off. I don’t, however, want to make this sound glamorous as it was not. Through two years of tears, working through anger, sadness, shame and fear, I literally broke through that last piece of the something that was stopping me from enjoying my life and being of service to others. The unconditional love I have received from everyone since then is huge and helped change my life.
Continuing My Own Life Journey
Once I released the energies of those feelings that I had been holding onto for so long, I began to feel the need to move into something bigger, that I had something big to offer to the world. I continue my journey on a daily basis, it really doesn’t stop. I feel stronger and more courageous as more and more healing occurs, but things open up for me now, every day. There are many people in my life that I am grateful for who have helped me along the way, I learned from the positive information as well as the negative. I am especially grateful to my Source for showing me the light I have inside of me.
I have done and experienced many things in my life and on my path and have finally come to realize that it’s okay to follow many different directions until you come to the path that you are meant to be on. But the thing I also learned is that the path I was meant to be on is not necessarily a paved road laid out by others. It is a path that I made, not necessarily the road less traveled, but my road.
Where Am I Going From Here?
At this time, I have come to that part of the road that is vanishing. I don’t know where it will lead, but I do know I have the strength to carry on and would not have gotten here without the help of dear friends, family, and guides on this journey; and to all, I am very grateful. It has come to the point that I can teach and guide you in finding your way onto your road, your potential, your light. Finding that place inside of you that you can call home. Out of all of this grew…
The Spiritual Connection – Caroline’s Bio
Caroline holds a Master’s Degree in Metaphysical Humanistic Science and has a wide and varied background in many fields such as the military, business, and administration. She is a Life Leadership Coach, Energy Practitioner, Ordained Minister and Author. It took many years of research, study and working things out to be able to combine her gifts and skills into a cohesive program that can assist others in breaking through unconscious belief systems and become leaders in their own lives.
“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.” E. H. Chapin